Today is a good day!
Not just because it is 1:30 PM and I am still in my pajamas.
But because for the first time, in a long time, I am taking direct action to align with and fulfill what I am truly meant to do.
Today, I feel like I’m on the right track.
My confidence is back.
And in this shining moment, I will ride the wave with certainty and excitement.
This past year has been incredibly tough. It has been harder than I can explain to anyone – even to my husband who has been on my journey every step of the way.
I have been pushed to limits I never knew I could handle – and for the most part I have showed up with my “A” game and won!
But behind the scenes, I haven’t always encompassed the same power that many have grown to expect and I have been living behind the shadow of fear and uncertainty.
There have been many days when you wouldn’t recognize me if you saw me on the street. To a certain degree, I slipped into survival mode alone – not willing to share this dark side for fear of opening myself up to even more vulnerability.
Some days I would roll up in the fetal position with the covers over my head because I couldn’t possibly push myself any further.
All days, self doubt encompassed my every thought to the point I began to lose faith in myself.
Many will argue that these symptoms are not uncommon and they are often a natural consequence of expanding your soul growth.
While common for some – I have never experienced anything like it.
Today is a good day – I can see some light.
I am working on a new program that is directly in alignment with who I am and who I want to serve.
My message is coming easier, clearer – I am no longer choking on my words when I speak.
I am out of bed. And although I am still in my pajamas, it is by choice – not by necessity.
When people ask me what I do for a living, I am able to muster up more than, “I’m not really sure.”
The shadows are dissipating and I am growing stronger and more confident every single day.
But I wonder – did I really have to go through all the darkness to get here? Did I do this to myself – did I choose this? Was there an easier and better way to be able to reach my end goal?
And even scarier – When I push myself further the next time, will I go through it again? Or will I come out of this darkness and learn from the experience and hopefully know better the next time around?
So why am I sharing this?
Because it is important for all of my followers to know the truth behind my journey – to fully understand that this is not coming easy –and that anything worth fighting for typically doesn’t come easy.
And just because I am not splattering my faults all over Facebook, they do exist. And rest assured they exist for most everyone.
Change is hard. Growth is harder. Combine the two and you’re opening yourself up to one hell of a spontaneous combustion.
Think about this…What if I didn’t allow myself to grow? What if I didn’t experience a year from hell? What if I didn’t listen to the people who believed in me even when I didn’t believe in myself?
What if I would have stayed stagnant when I knew my life’s purpose was so much more than I was living?
What if I didn’t experience failure? Would I recognize success?
Luckily, I don’t have to answer these questions.
Because I have lived it and I survived!
I want each and every one of you to know…. I believe in your dreams, your talents, and your life’s purpose.
I believe your life can be what you want it to be.
I believe the first step is the hardest, and although you may stumble while taking that step, with enough training you can run a marathon.
I believe in you!
Today is a good day.
And I pray tomorrow will be a good day, as well. But I now live with the understanding that I can weather the storms and come out on the other side.
So if tomorrow is a bad day, I’ll make it through. I just keep setting my sights on better days to come.
They always come.
PS. Is there something you wish you had to courage to do? What’s stopping you?