As children, we were conditioned to believe that Christmas is indeed the happiest time of the year. We were surrounded with Ho-Ho-Ho’s and Fa la la la la’s and we were placed in a bubble – led to believe that everyone else was living our same reality.
Oh, what I would give to be able to live this time of year as a child – to be able to embrace this season through its simplicity and to once again enjoy the true magic of Christmas.
Over time, we begin to see the world through different eyes – through the eyes of an adult. The simplicity of the season begins to be masked by the harsh realities that not everyone is living in love, peace and joy.
The holiday season is not a happy time for so many people – many do not have the financial resources to be able to celebrate with their children. Many are sick or mourning the loss of a loved one. Many are alone – without family and friends to engage in this special time.
Yet I have been blessed.
This past week has been incredibly difficult for me. I have cried…a lot. And I have not been feeling the Christmas Spirit.
I have been feeling guilt – guilt that I am able to supply a beautiful Christmas for my children and that I will be surrounded by my loved ones.
Guilt that I have done so much for my kids and I have not given enough back to my community.
Guilt that we are blessed with great abundance in our health, happiness, friends, family and in our love for each other.
Guilt that I have once again been sucked in to the hustle and bustle of this season, while I should be spending quality time with my kids.
Guilt that I am experiencing guilt – after all, this is the happiest time of the year.
But it wasn’t for me – I simply could not connect with the true meaning of Christmas.
And then through the tears I remembered – I can live these fleeting moments in sadness and guilt – or I can choose to live them in happiness and gratitude.
It is always a choice.
So today I choose happiness and gratitude. I choose a sense of calm.
I choose to open my heart and to help my community in any way that I can and not just because it’s the pressure of the holiday season, but all year round.
I choose to wrap myself in the love of my family and friends, while giving thanks for those who have passed.
I choose to let go of all of the insignificant aspects of this holiday season and to fully engage in what the Christmas spirit is all about.
I can’t change the world, but I can change how I view it.
Today I choose to bless it and raise it in its highest light, in hopes that we can all find love, peace, and joy – not only today, but always.
I choose to go back to the real reason we celebrate Christmas and to embrace the blessings it bestows upon us.
I choose to give thanks and to pray, “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace, good will toward men.”